Welcome back everyone! After not posting anything last week let’s get right back at it!

The reason I didn’t post anything is that I had a bunch of anxiety attacks over the last week which sucked. Let’s be honest, no one wants to have anxiety. Ever. BUT! I was able to just take time off work! How? I run my own business so I can focus on myself and my health whenever I want or need to! Speaking of perks of being your own boss: nothing happened while I took time off. All the people I was talking to were patiently waiting (big shoutout for being so patient with me!) and I was able to just get back at it when I felt better! And because I can just take time off I was also able to celebrate my boyfriend’s birthday for three days (large family).

I basically want to talk about how this has helped with my anxiety. I don’t know about you but I tend to get really stressed out when I am unhappy or feel stuck. And I felt really stuck at a lot of the jobs I have had over the years. I have never felt stuck in theatre because there is always so much to learn. You know when you wake up in the morning and realize that you have to go to work that day and you just want to turn around and go back to sleep? And what can really top that off is realizing that you might be stuck going to that job for a loooong time. Boy oh boy, am I right? And stuff like that can set off anxiety attacks. That is why it is so important to make conscious choices about your life. Like, where do you WANT to work? What are you passionate about? Is your jobs important to you or are you fine doing something that pays the bills but doesn’t fulfill you?

I have honestly never met anyone you would have said that they are fine doing anything. Because doing things that you are not passionate about or that even annoy you is exhausting. I am telling you this because I have been doing it for a very long time. Taking any job to get by. Thinking I should be happy because I have a job. And you should always be grateful for the things you have. But still do what makes you feel good! Even you do something you are really passionate about or that you love doing you might still get uncomfortable. That is not what I mean. Do something that fills your soul with laughter and joy!

When I was in therapy my therapist asked me where I relaxed. She asked that because at that time I was living in a shared apartment I didn’t really feel at home in, I was working at a job I didn’t enjoy and that didn’t pay the bills and I didn’t have a relationship to fall back on.

It is important that everyone has at least one thing or space or person that makes them feel safe and where they can let their guard down and relax. You need safety in your life for your well being and to avoid anxiety.

Do you have that in your life? No one can tell you what it is exactly that you are looking for to make you feel safe. If you are looking for a job where you can feel fulfilled, hit me up. Leave a message or contact me via instagram. I would love to help you create safety in your life!

If you are looking for a quick fix for anxiety try breathing exercises or working out. And, something my sister has recently taught me, is to just tell your brain “Fuck no, not today!”. And it sounds ridiculous but it helps a lot! Because remember however you are feeling: it just you anxiety talking. For me, an anxiety attack will make me feel like I am about to die because of a brain tumor, like I am not going to wake up the next day. And it makes me feel so desperate and sad. And while sometimes talking to people helps to put things in perspective it might also not work at all. So it is important to remind yourself that you have felt like that before and there is no reason to be worried. You’ll get through this! I guarantee it!

Like always, leave a comment and let me know what you think!

Reach out if you want to talk about anxiety or are looking for a way to create safety in your life. I am here to help!

See you soon,


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